I have been thinking a lot about the idea of “flow,” and how to structure my career so I can find it more often. As part of this, I have been doing some writing exercises from the book Bliss by Katherine Ramsland. Here is what I wrote today about a recent session with a new client:
As I entered the room, I felt like I was stepping into a higher version of myself. I felt my pulse moving and yet I was completely relaxed. My mind was not thinking forward or backward. I felt like the nerve connections between my touch and the interpreting parts of my brain had been widened and cleared of debris. Everything I did was a sun salutation, with movements happening at the rhythm of breath. I was pre-verbal, able to communicate through gesture and intention alone. It wasn’t that training, knowledge and science didn’t matter. It was that those things were so completely absorbed into my being and doing that I didn’t need to actively reference them — the way you don’t need to reference the contractions of the cardiac muscle in order to have a pulse. The session was a deep and meaningful conversation, conducted in total silence. I used my body, I worked hard, but I didn’t notice until I stepped out of the room at the end of the session. Even the sore quads and fatigued hands felt like gifts that were oddly energizing to my mind and spirit. It was the experience of feeling and doing two totally opposite things at once, where the logic brain gets so confused it taps out and the art brain takes over.